I want to hide behind
dark eyes, cloak myself in long
black hair, red lips, pale skin.
Feel something different in my fingers.

The blondness of how I am known
somehow doesn’t seem to fit.
I am something different until I catch a
glimpse—in the mirror, in someone’s

I fight to keep this vision of myself
intact, when I continually feel like I am
viewing myself in a puddle during a
rain storm.

Trying to scream over thunder.

Every moment makes me realign my
thoughts. Every person feels
like an old friend and a stranger.
His kiss feels a hundred years old, while
somehow I don’t know it at all.

The familiar is foreign.

It is a want for difference like
a fury building inside me.
A fire—destructive and life giving–
in my throat. Perhaps breathing
it out in a rampage of words might
eliminate the burning behind
my ears,
my eyes.

I need something to douse this heart.


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